WOW...so much has happened here lately. ive got most of my stuff moved in with my dad, its great. i love being able to live both places. plus, mine and his daily talks are fun. we have plans to eat carter at main tomorrow...daughter daddy lunch, its been awhile, actually...it might be a first. my summer classes are going well. i know every medical term there ever is! i start my cpr class next monday...then ill be able to get a lot more health classes in. i do not doubt myself by going into the medical field. i always thought i would be a writer, lawyer, therapist....but i guess i was wrong. i love what i will be doing though, so ya ya for me! it feels great to finally know where im heading in life, and i have a lot of others to thank for getting me there.

i have also realized a lot lately.......

i would do ANYTHING for my friends...even if that means round 2

mine and rikki's movie nights have been great...everybody needs one

im never alone....and when i am im miserable...so, im never going to be alone

i gave up a lot last summer....i will NEVER do it again

i have more guy friends than girls....their awesome people

...actually....my friends straight up rule, they deserve everything

i love getting to know people

i have become addicted to myspace...its sad

i miss my sister, she comes in saturday though...cant wait 

craziest thing...i found a shybone (YES ME) found the shy spot of me today...i have never felt so uncomfortable around myself....

ive halfassed a lot of things.....im correcting myself as i go

2 of my closest friends are pregnant....and another one had a baby a few months ago. crazy, a year ago we were graduating together.....but i couldnt be happier!

we have a beachtrip planned in a few weeks....best friends+MB= dont expect us to be coming back

i dont think it gets any better than what it is now

 i hung out with this rugrat today by the pool....aka lexi :)

I LOVE THEM

i took my last final today, and now im DONE with classes!!

this summer will kick major ass

1 final down ... 4 to go

try new things. read a stupid book. put trust in people. wear really big sunglasses while driving (). buy a cd that you've never heard. believe in something that is hard to believe in. go visit an old friend. smile at someone you dont know. tell your mom you love her.

nb. cm. hm. rb. jh. ---- u girls got ALL my <3!! 

WOW ... school is a biotch, fall term is going to end my life, 8:15's + whitney = noshow. its going to take discipline to wake up for the early morning classes, i actually would rather not even think about it. sooo, the other night we rode up to the bluehole ... more crazy people showed up and we drove up to the firetower, im scared of heights (never ever again) i had had a blast though...i have to say i love those boys. i talked to my sister for a long time tonight. she gives me so much good advice, and we get a long great now that were 2 states apart. i've realized more lately then i ever have. i need more "me" time. ive made a lot stupid faults, but its only lessons learned...not regrets. i went in circles for a long time (my friends refered to them as "figure 8's) and i finally broke loose of that. no more ... it took awhile to realize. you think at times, you'll learn the first time, but you never give up hope. and sometimes in the end, its worth not giving up the little bit of faith you have in whatever your trying to make happen. me, nor my friends are invinsible. parents only care, if they didnt bitch, we would bitch thinking they didnt care. ive had so much fun lately, despite the negatives. i would be lost without my crew. i havent let a lot bother me lately, ive actually brushed it all off. i dont live in the past, and i dont live upon memories, it only keeps you from moving forward. dwelling on them doesnt help either...only realize... their the stupid ones...your the shit.

wandering the streets in a world underneath it all
nothing seems to be
nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
like you and the way that you're                                                                                twisting your hair around your finger
tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
what I feel about you

*and i keep telling myself, in the end it will be ok*